I write out my heart. Say on this page alot of things I've felt for a while.
I leave to get Dakota from track practice and as I am turning onto 271, the radio personality says: "Are you tired of being stuck in a rut? Going through the motions? Do you want to feel that fire?"
As I pull into traffic I try not to stare at the radio as I guide my silver car through the lights to the school. Then a song comes on the radio that is (without question) given to me for that specific moment.
I had a divine appointment. Right there in the middle of ordinary traffic, on an ordinary Wednesday after I dared to write what I really feel. A divine meeting with the Creator of the Universe, right there, just for me.
This might hurt, it's not safe
But I know that I've gotta make a change
I don't care if I break,At least I'll be feeling something
'Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life
I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,instead of going through the motions?"
No regrets, not this time
I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let Your love make me whole
I think I'm finally feeling something'
Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of this life
'Cause I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,instead of going through the motions?"
("Motions" Matthew West)
And so, here I sit with my eyes on the screen. Scanning lyrics that a stranger wrote specifically for me? Maybe not just for me but I tend to think that.
So now what do I do with this information given to me . . . literally tossed in my lap from a Heavenly Father who must be smiling and shaking His head at me?
I know for sure the very first line of this song is so very true right now, "This might hurt, it's not safe" speaks to me in the right here and the right now of my life.
