There are things in this life and humble a heart. The face of a child, the smile of a senior citizen, the laugh of your friends. Sometimes it's just a feeling.
I read a message today from someone I really didn't expect to hear from and their words pricked my heart and showed me that God's mercy and grace are everlasting and overflowing.
By the world's standards this person should never have replied to me and held a grudge. Not because of my actions but actions of a family member who hurt them so deeply. It happened at a time in my life when I wasn't a child of God and I didn't do everything I could to help. In my selfishness I let that person down and it's a deep regret that I have.
But her words healed something in my heart concerning that whole situation and her graciousness was admirable. I know that I am not responsible for the hurt but being related to someone who has a habit of hurting everyone around them has a stigma attached to it.
Because I walk with Christ now I have such a heart for the damage this person has done. It breaks my heart to think of the children and the ex-wives that have been traumatized and then abandonded. It hurts me that he couldn't be the father and husband he needed to be - the man that God calls all men to be.
I am ashamed of him. It has built a huge wall up in my heart concerning him and I know that I have to forigve him. It seems impossible right now especially after talking to a victim of his devestation.
I am so happy for the contact and the ability to just say "Hi" and wish them the best. It's a small thing but it's a huge start. I know that I cannot fix what he did to her or anyone else but I can tell them I am sorry for what he did. I can stand in the gap and give them some sort of apology even though I know it doesn't mean alot and it doesn't take away his responsibility.
I know that God blessed me today with her reply and I am so thankful.
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